Thursday, December 31, 2015

Happy New Year : New Beginning

One hour more and another year will be over. This day, this date, this time, will never be back and we won't be able to live this moment again. It will only be read as history in old newspapers or books. Time flies, it is really true. 2015 went by so fast that it seems it was just yesterday 2014 ended but it is already a year long.

It feels the time is flying away from my life but, I am still there where I was. I never made any new year resolutions but this year might be different or maybe just like any other year, I always thought the coming year will be different. But this time, I am more determined to change my life. Maybe, it will really be different. Who knows what God’s plans are for my coming year. :P 

Like everyone else, I too again want to change a few bad habits like sleeping late and waking up late, procrastinating things, laziness, etc. In the coming year I have decided to pursue new hobbies like learning guitar but first of all, I need to buy a guitar. Then I want to buy a DSLR camera and there are a lot more things I want to do, like building castles in the air. (Lolz .. :D)

These are just desires and they never end. Let's just see what 2016 is bringing for me. Hope it will be something good and exciting and not boring like 2015. 2015 is just about to end in 15 minutes more, I can already listen the sound of crackers from outside. Yes, I am not having any new year bash like always. This year I have decided to sleep early but it seems I am already late. So bye bye 2015.

I wish a very Happy 2016 to all of you. May this year be your best till now and you achieve whatever you desire for. :)

Happy New Year


Friday, December 25, 2015

Skywatch Friday : Sunset Silhouette



Deer Lake, Hauz Khas Village (Delhi, India)

This is the most serene and beautiful place in Delhi. Always been my favorite ever since I had a visit for the first time. It is just different and not Delhi type. It feels like you have come to altogether a different state (ignore some stupid Delhi people around :P). It lets me be stay calm in my own dreamland of nature. 

This picture was taken in summers during one of my trip to the place with my friends. And it is captured on a mobile camera of one of my friend by me of course. I am yet to buy a DSLR :P

PS: It will be my first blog post from mobile. And it's not so feeling good posting from mobile.

PPS: Merry Christmas to all my visitors. May this one be your best till now and Santa gives you all that you wishes for :)

To view more magical skies from around the world, click on the on the image below.

Skywatch Friday


Thursday, December 17, 2015

The God's Word


Aisha was dejected and broken from inside, tears were rolling down her cheeks as she stood on the staircase of yet another office where she got rejected for a job. She was really disappointed with herself and almost lost hope of getting any kind of job in her life. She was feeling exhausted, lost all her hopes and didn’t want to try anymore for anything. She just wanted to do nothing at all, she was left with no energy within her to try anymore. She was crying uncontrollably. 

Then, she heard someone’s steps  behind her and tried to control herself, wiped off the tears but still the guy understood that she was crying.

Aisha looked at him from the corner of her eyes and immediately recognised him. He was the same guy who went for the interview next to her. He came closer and said:

Hey, don’t get dejected it was just another job you deserve better than this. You were not meant to be here, you will find your destination. Whenever you get rejected somewhere or failed in something, just remember it was not meant for you. You deserve something better and larger than this. Never lose heart for the small failures you face and there is no such thing as big failures. Failures are always small, only winnings are big. There is always something larger and better is waiting for you next door. Just keep looking around and never get too much disappointed. Because too much disappointment and negativity makes you weak and distracts you from doing your part well, that is hard work and hard work only. Just keep going and you will reach your destination one day.

He put her arm around her shoulder to calm her down and left from there. Aisha kept looking him going downwards, but could not say anything at all. She was feeling energised and motivated again. She ran downwards to thank him but could not find him anywhere. He was like an angel whom God has sent for her from nowhere to calm her down.


Tuesday, December 15, 2015

Falling apart



I know it’s time
For me to stop, for you to go on.

I know it’s time
To not give, to not expect.

I know it’s time
To let you be careless, to be ignorant

I know it’s time
For me to care less, think less and feel less.

I know it’s time
To move on and go away from you
Because, it won’t matter to you.

I know it is easier said than done
I know I should not care, but I still do.

I know I should not love
But I still do and will do.

Monday, November 30, 2015

Goodbye

I hate goodbyes. I just can’t do it. It is always the other person who had to do it if they must. Most of the times goodbyes are unsaid and these are more painful than the one that are said. Because you always have the hope of them to returning back to you but most of the times they don’t.

I saying goodbye to someone is of no use because I always turn back to them to say a hello or to know how are you? These goodbyes I am referring not only to your loved ones, but there are unsaid goodbyes between the friends. Your school or college or just any friend who promised you to be by your side always but then everyone gets busy in the hustle-bustle of their own life, make new friends and then you never talked again and lost contacts. But thanks to Mark Zuckerberg, he made a wonderful thing you can find them but only if you can still recognise them in their display picture and if you have the patience to scroll down to the list of hundreds with the same name.

There are also some friends, whom you say goodbye no matter how many times, but you always drift back in a year or two or sometimes maybe more and these are my favourite people. I think even I am also one of these because I usually don’t lose contact and I always save it somewhere or maybe just because of my good memory. Good memory, I must say is not always a good thing to have because it also not lets you forget the bad memories or the things you want to forget.

But one should never say goodbye to the ones they can’t do without no matter what the circumstances are. I think if you really want them in your life you can always manage things and try hard. Maybe I am not right completely because one cannot change the destiny and sometimes to say goodbye is the only option left. In the end, I would just say goodbyes are the hardest part of my life but somehow it always comes back in my life with one or another face.


Tuesday, August 18, 2015

Feelings





I wonder why we have feelings. Life would have been much simpler and less complicated if we didn’t have any feelings in the first place. They make everything so messed up. Some days I feel happy the other days sad and frustrated. Though, sad is not the right word, it is a weird feeling. It feels like there is nothing good in life to be happy about. I don’t understand why it happens like, yesterday I was feeling everything is just perfect and right now I am feeling nothing is right, there is a lot that need changes in my life, in me, my attitude, in everything. Maybe it has something to do with being positive and negative. But these all are just feelings again, why do we have them?

My life would have been much different if I didn’t have them. There would have been much fewer problems, no mood swings, no complications, no unnecessary over thinking nothing useless. I think all these feelings waste our time and become a distraction between what we actually want to do.

I know this is just unnecessary stuff I am writing, but I have to write because I don’t have anyone to speak about it or maybe no one will understand. Again, it’s my feelings which I feel no one will be able to understand. I wonder is it even possible to understand what exactly someone feels because everyone has a different mind and different perception. You can express what you feel, but you cannot be sure of what the other understands.

Many a times we say to our closed ones that “you will not understand it”, I think it is true no one understand what are the actual feelings they just empathize with us. Recently, read about “alter ego” – a close friend who thinks or feels similarly to the way you think or feel. Is it really true do people have such friends in their life? I don’t have anyone like that or maybe I am not good in expressing my feelings that’s why they don’t understand.

Alter ego have another meaning too which means the opposite side of one’s personality, I think this alter ego I have. :D No, I don’t have any split personality disorder but I guess everyone have two sides of their personality, one which they shows to everyone and the other which they don’t show to anyone or shows to only closed ones.

But still I feel the feelings are unnecessary. (Again, I feel the feeling of feeling being useless :P) Do we have another word for the word ‘feeling’? Oh God, someone, please help me with my vocabulary. Anyways, enough of feelings now I am getting sleepy feeling because it's 2 am right now and just today I checked that most of my blog posts are uploaded in the mid of the night, such an insomniac I am. I think this insomnia is also a problem that I over think and get different feelings. Whatever it is, after typing all this useless stuff I am feeling good and I think I am back to normal mode. And for this my blog and this laptop deserves a big thank you. 

PS: A big thanks to you too, yes you the one who is reading this, my generous readers. Thank you for reading. 

Saturday, August 15, 2015

Live, Learn and Carry On


Image Courtesy: www.onelifesuccess.net

Life is a journey in which we experience many things and learn from it. The important thing is to learn and change your life gradually. I am sharing some of the things which I have learned in my life and I wish I won't repeat the same mistakes again.

I have learned that if you don't think about yourself then don't expect that anyone else would do this for you. If you don't bother to do this doesn't mean that others will think about you before themselves.

I have learned that it is never a reason that you don't have time for someone or something, it is always the priorities that change with the time and needs.

I have learned that you should never do so much for someone that it will become difficult for them to repay, or if they didn't return it will hurt you. you should never give someone the power to hurt you.

I have learned that one should never give the right to anyone to hurt you so much that it will become impossible to forgive them.

I have learned that you should never give so much value to someone in your life that you become valueless in their lives.

I have learned that you should never become dependent on anyone after a certain time period that it will become a burden for them and for you as well.

I have learned that earning happiness is more important than earning money because you can earn money in many ways, but it is not always possible to earn happiness while you earn that money.

I have learned that you should always take your decisions yourself so that you won't blame anyone else in future for what is happening in your life. After all it is your life you have to make your own ways to live it.

I have learned that, if someone expects something from you, try not to disappoint them.

I have learned that if you are expecting too much from someone, sooner or later you will be disappointed with them and yourself.

I have learned that loving yourself is more important than loving others. Don’t try to be so very kind you won’t get anything.

I have learned that you should learn to say “No”. It is not necessary to say yes to everyone on every other thing.

Monday, May 11, 2015

Who am I?



Who am I? I am still in search of its answer, in the process of making my 'Identity'.

In the meanwhile, I am a Dreamer, Observer, Struggler and an Impatient Being. But the most important thing about me is that I want to change all this except being an Observer.

I would always love to observe the things, the world, the people, nature, and the birds. And yes, I do observe myself too. I am a changed person now than what I was a few years earlier. Although my habits have not changed much which I always wanted to do and still wants to.  But still I feel change I am a bit older now and more mature maybe.  Yes, we say age is just a number but I realized lately it’s an important number. And you can never get back to the time you have already lost.

Whenever someone asks me, “tell me something about yourself”. I tell them my name, about my family, my hobbies - which I don’t mostly pursue, and what I do I don’t count them as my hobbies. This one question has always been a difficult one for me on which if I keep thinking I won’t stop to tell them about me. But then I realized what I think is not what people wants to listen.

I am the one with the silent nature but the loudest mind. I am the one who stands in the crowd but still seems different. I am the one who is there in between the people but still not there, a wanderer.  When I passed out from school I got the title “silent water runs deeper”. I took it in a positive manner. I am like a river which seems quiet and shallow on the surface but might be deeper than what you observe. Many might feel I am a mysterious person, but only those who are close to me know how open I am about my thoughts.  Thus, I am a reserved person too everyone can’t be my friend neither I can be a friend to everyone.